I'm ba-ack

hullo fellow bloggers. i've been away for weekend...missed blogging *i know, weird!* must have some kinda blogger addiction, i actually considered dropping in to work yesterday just to check in on everyone....hmm lol bloggeraddict... any way, held myself back and waited until today lol!

So, the weekend was fun. My precious Dan turned 30 yesterday... i'm pleased to say that last night he told me how much he has admired my strength to make changes in my life and how i am influencing him to make some positive changes in his own life (even if they may be slooooow) it was nice to hear.... because some times i do get a little anal re: anything to do with my fitness... sometimes i think he'd like to shove a sock in my mouth lol.... so the poor love is trying...i know my changes took a while to come about so i suppose by me sticking to my guns he'll have to come round eventually...

Latest dilemma... i'm not at all stressed about this, but think i should confess my sins to make everyone else feel better, so Bella can kick my a#s and so i stop thinking about it....

So anyway, we went camping on the weekend... it was so AWESOME... i feel like a new woman, just smelling the smoke from the fire.....the sea salt in the air, is enough to make you feel as if you've been on a proper holiday ahhhh....have a new stress free wholesome love for anything AUssie... "i am you are...we are AUSTRALIAN"....just love our FREEDOM...anyway...all the overwhelming LOVE may have been slighlty influenced by the amount of boozers i had consumed (yep..no misprint i lost the plot man....) after a 100% week when Dan told me to have a weekend off to enjoy the camping (due to the food being difficult etc...) i agreed.....agghhhhh, it is blatantly obvious it was a CRAP idea, i could have pre cooked chicken and had my containers with meals prepared....so blah blah blah there was absolutely no excuse...

I am pleased to say that i kicked my butt (and his) that's where the "d & m" chat stemmed from.... i made him promise to support me 100% and never give me an 'out option' because i have goals and damned if i'm going to let immediate satisfaction stuff up MY long term goals. He wholeheartedly agreed and apologised. I'm only mad at myself because I KNOW BETTER now and there really are no excuses and i thought i'd be passed that by now...have resolved that i am only human (even if others think i'm a dragon (currently only puffing smoke not fire)...(entirely different story)lol

Dilemma 2...(ANY HELP would be greatly appreciated here!) Ok, so i've let dan turning 30 rob me of 1 weekend (what is it with birthdays, how do they just seem to keep going way after their expiry date!?) lol, it's ok to celebrate..but a birthday is only for 1 day man... we get to celebrate ALL over again next Saturday night when Daniel and one of my closest girlfriends celebrate turning 30 together! i have got over the drinking grog for the sake of it thing ie i can now go fishing and spend every ordinary day booze free...however this is the first social occassion where i am trying to plan in advance a no alcohol evening (i have dans support) but it's still not going to be easy. i don't mind not drinking, but EVERYONE who will be there will be drinking, it's all goo dto start off with, but as the evening progresses people who were normal only a couple of hours previous turn into blubbering morons....any you as a non drinker are lucky enough to be sitting there being punished with it... i won't be able to just go and make an appearance then leave either, because it's for 2 people who are really close to me.

i now have an evil voice inside my head saying " it's the last night you'll spend as a smoker just go, enjoy the evening , have a couple of glasses of wine...don't stress yourself out...(as dan and i have planned next sat night to be our last night smoking, sun being day 1 as non smokers) i know it's not as easy as that....drinking leads to hangovers, no exercise and bad food decisions, bloody evil circle... so any suggestions would be appreciated.... if i can get through next Sat night i will be positively indestructable for chrissy and new years.....

On a positive/hmm negative note.... i got through all of my weights seessions, only half of my abs sessions (bugger) and 98% of my cardio....and stuck to my diet 100% besides sat/sun.... which is far from perfect but i've made changes to fix it...

so this morning i did abs and cardio and planned to weights tonight.... i'm going to try and drill as much cardio and abs first thing in the morning so i don't get distracted, as my weights have to be done on specific days i will be more likely to do that at the end of the day then cardio/abs... i think this will work better....

anyway, now that i've bored eberyone shitless with my dribble will leave you all alone...

changed the look of blog because my pages were playing up to Bella.....