Kat & Bella

Bella's NEW profile

2007-07-27T16:18:00.000+09:30

I think my new profile is very fitting - and freakin INSPIRING!

myspace

2007-07-25T07:59:00.000+09:30

i'm blogging with Bella for this challenge; but my permanent new home is here at myspace:

http://www.myspace.com/kaddysblog

would love it if you wanted to drop by and visit!sometimes i feel like i live a 'blogger' world and a 'outside' world; this is my way of imagulmating them both. plus i love the wicked designs!

Gospel Aerobics - Giving Him Praise

2007-07-24T21:19:00.001+09:30

NOW if this doesn't motivate you i don't know what will... ROFLMAAAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

week 4 day 2

2007-07-24T14:30:00.000+09:30

Well; got straight back on track this morning; weighed in at 67.8kgs it was lovely to see the backside of 68 i can tell you!

I got up and went for a nice walk/jog/run this morning....pushed myself hard. Am going to do a weights session tonight which i'm looking forward to. Am loving the way this program is structured.

The best thing is everyday i know i make a change in some way; which is really exciting; i am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. i have got another gf on to a challenge at the mo.... she's off to Europe in 6 weeks and wants to feel good sunning herself.... so i have someone else to report to :)

I am extremely focused on acting how i would once i've reached my goals; keeping a good confident posture; being vigilant with self talk and it's making me feel skinny already even if that's not the reality!

Strength and Courage

2007-07-23T13:48:00.000+09:30

It Takes Courage
Author Unknown

It takes strength to be firm, It takes courage to be gentle.

It takes strength to conquer, It takes courage to surrender.

It takes strength to be certain, It takes courage to have doubt.

It takes strength to fit in, It takes courage to stand out.

It takes strength to feel a friend's pain, It takes courage to feel your own pain.

It takes strength to endure abuse, It takes courage to stop it.

It takes strength to stand alone, It takes courage to lean on another.

It takes strength to love, It takes courage to be loved.

It takes strength to survive, It takes courage to live.

4 / 57 Week 2

2007-07-23T11:24:00.000+09:30

Hello! Feeling great today - apart from the FREEZING weather I am motivated! I have been thinking about my health goals and visualising that I have already achieved them all - I look HOT! lol "You are a magnet attracting to you all things, via the signal you are emitting through your thoughts and feelings" - I love that - its so true!

Breakfast:
chicken & veggies
Snack:
chicken & veggies
Lunch:
tuna & snow peas
Snack:
ryvita with avocado & salmon
Dinner:
chicken & veggies
Water:
2 litres
Supplements:
doh - forgot again!!
Exercise:
Weights - first day of new prog!

I LOVE KATE HUDSON! she has such a hot body!

Day 1 of 9 week challenge

2007-07-23T10:06:00.000+09:30

Howdy!

Well, my program is great, i have been less than perfect but am steadily moving the buldge. I felt so dejected and embarrassed yesterday afternoon, i felt huge and so uncomfortably fat it brang me down. When i got home i had to get changed in to some shorts coz we were going out in the boat; thinkin' :this'll be fun...nothing fits," i put on an od pair of shorts which didnt fit me a couple of months ago and they fit!!!!! whoop whoop

so i felt a little better! Consistancy is the key.

I just downloaded the calorie king software, as i want to be more aware and be able to better monitor what i'm putting in my mouth and it blew me away!

As i am already 3 weeks through Ness's program Amelias '9 week' challenge is just in the nick of time! I have 9 weeks left of the program, i have logged my goal up on the right hand side. I will be 60kgs by the end OMG how exciting!! I can't wait!

3/57 - Week1

2007-07-22T09:03:00.000+09:30

Morning! Feeling good - lots to do on a Sunday - "no rest for the wicked" - so cliche, I know, but so true! Its TTOM so decided to have a little bowl of oats this morning - Coles has an organic instant oats which is so yummy - I just added some cinnamon for taste.

Plan to take dog out for walk today - should do it this morning before the weather turns and then she gives me 'guilt' looks all afternoon (nothing worse!) Plan to go on a water rampage today also - I really need to get on top of that and drink much more water than I have been - I bought a Nobles Pureau 10 litre tub - its my favourite water out there - so I have no excuse!

Breakfast:
sml bowl oats
Snack:
x2 Ryvita with avocado & tuna
Lunch:
chicken & veggies
Snack:
chicken & veggies
Dinner:
chicken & veggies
Water:
2 litres
Supplements:
yep
Exercise:
nope

Have had a weird muscle pain in my left arm today - so freakin annoying!!

Daily Quotation:
Everything that has ever been lived, everything that has ever been written down or documented, has been vibration first. Everything has been conjured in vibration first before it manifests. So if something has manifested and you continue to give it your attention, the fact that it is true should really hold no weight with you. The question that we would ask is not, is it true, or is it undeniable? The question that we would ask is, how does it make me feel when I focus upon it? And if the answer to the question is, it doesn't make me feel very good when I focus upon it, then we would say, true or not, it does not serve you. And if you will activate a different part of your vibration--the "truth" will shift. --- Abraham

2/57 - Week 1

2007-07-21T16:11:00.000+09:30

Phew - so I am sitting here feeling a little tired! lol! Thanks for the congrats Kat ! You certainly have been with me through my journey - I really appreciate your support :-)
So health-wise am still feeling good - all on track really - dinner last night was pretty good - wasnt too hungry anyway as was quite nervous - had a couple of reds and then in bed by 1am!

Today has been good also:

Breakfast:
9am - chicken & veggie
Snack:
skipped...whoops!
Lunch:
1:30pm - chicken & veggie
Snack:
4pm - salmon on x2Ryvita with avocado
Dinner:
150g eye fillet with greek salad
few bites of chocolate pudding
glass of red wine
Water:
1 litre
Supplements:
forgot - damn
Exercise:
nope

Am eating out tonight and plan to have a really nice glass of red - its about 5C here at the moment and the fire is roaring which is great - I am struggling to keep my eyes open! It should be snowing and I should be wearing a 'snow bunny' outfit like those Victorias Secret models - lol!
Life is all good - am enjoying the feeling :-)

Daily Quotaion:
Every time you want something and achieve vibrational harmony with it and allow it to come to you, you not only gain the satisfaction of having accomplished your desire, you also gain a whole new perspective from which to desire. --- Abraham

Shafted

2007-07-21T09:58:00.000+09:30

Well.... im sitting here seething agter minimal sleep. I met this lovely girl who is up on holidays (staying at my bosses house) last week and i offered to baby sit for her last night. Then unexpectedly it was our last day Whale Sharking and Dan got the day off; so i was keen for some end of season partying... BUT becasue i made a commitment i stuck to it, thinking she said she wasn't keen for a late night, i let her know that when she got home we were going to go out.

ANYWAY..... long story short, she ignored some texts i sent at about 11...yes thats right 11..... and totally disregarded me.... she finally came to get him at 1.30 (yes that's right 1 freakin thirty am) in a strangers house who she doesnt know that well.....and she had the audacity to pretend to feel guilty becasuse i was staying home! NEVER AGAIN... what a rude cow!

then i was so strung out and angry i barely slept all night anyway... in my head i was saying "let it go" but i just felt so ...hmmm... so... bloody USED!

So here i am typing madly after 4 hours sleep and i just dont want to see her i am still so mad.

phew glad i got that out of my system...

BIG CONGRATS TO BELLA and partner for their award they won; of course i expected it :) u guys ROCK!

SUPER GIRLS

2007-07-20T10:27:00.000+09:30

BELLA is on the left and I am on the right

we're back and ready to do some flab fightin'! Quick as a bird; swift as the wind; in no time i'll be thin. LMAO

Ok... on Wed i went on the boat for a fun day; i pulled up and saw the eski loaded with beer and just sighed.... got in my car and got some low carb, resolved if i really felt that i couldn't beat it at least i had a better option. Soooo got to swim with a humpback whale, purely by accident; the water was rough as guts and it was pretty SCARY!

Yesterday was a down day.... not much exercising happenning my body was letting me know it hated me and punished me as the consequence.... today back in to it; great weights session before work: back, bi's; tri's.

100% healthy meals: poached eggs on MG toast, yoghurt and almonds, chicken curry, ryvitas and salmon and for dinner i suspect some grilled chicken and veg will be on the cards.

AM SCULLING WATER and am about to treat myself with a skinny latte.

1 / 57 - Week 1

2007-07-20T08:17:00.000+09:30

Well I feel GREAT this morning - lots to do and look forward to!

TODAYS CHECK LIST:

Breakfast:
9am - chicken & veggie
Snack:
11am - chicken & veggie
Lunch:
1pm - salmon & veggie
Snack:
4pm - chicken & veggie
Dinner:
Dinner Function (3 courses)
Water:
2 litres
Supplements:
1 multi vitamin
Exercise:
dog for walk

I will be back later tonight to see how I went - the only uncertainty in Dinner - should be fine - I dont normally like the food at those functions anyway!

Daily Quotation:
If you have a subject that makes you uncomfortable when you think about it, it means there is strong desire related to it. Which means it really, really, really matters. So finding a way to think about it and feel good is your work. But it is equally effective to think about anything else and feel good, and let it in. You don't have to think about money in order to let in money. You just can't think about lack of money, to let in money --- Abraham

9.5 Week Birthday Mission!

2007-07-19T20:20:00.000+09:30

WHOAH! Its been a while!!! Just over a year since my last post in "Blog Land" Well - I am back - and this time it is a 9.5 Week Mission to 'be the best I can be' in time for my birthday!

So just like the Spice Girls... the Kat & Bella Blog has re-united once more!

HAD TO POST!

2006-05-20T12:52:00.000+09:30

GOOD LUCK RAE!

I am so excited for you I cant do any work! LOL

Here is a little clip of Lia (purple stripe) Kat (rainbow) and Bella (hot pink)- which was filmed exclusively whilst Rae was competing!!

ROCK AND ROLL YOU AINT SEEN NOTHING YET - YOU GONNA BREAK A SWEAT - ROCK AND ROLL!

Going it alone

2006-05-16T18:25:00.000+09:30

Hi guys, as i am up to a new part of my journey, i have gone it alone with another blog:

http://embracelifenow.blogspot.com/

drop by and asay hi sometime.

kat

2006-05-09T15:14:00.000+09:30

"I can trust my friends. These people force me to examine, encourage me to grow." -Cher

Well, whilst you're off tending to your abs I will be tending to my mind! 7 Days of Paul McKenna... bring it on!!

Will miss your sense of humour around here.... no one makes me laugh like you do!

Do prefer the phone calls though...god imagine if you lost your mobile... i don't think it owuld take me long to fly over just for some bella luvvin! xxx

thank you! what you do for me is pricelss, i am thankful for having been blessed with such an aweosme friend and am forever greatful our paths crossed!

BIT OF A REST / BREAK xxx

2006-05-09T13:37:00.000+09:30

Hello all :-)

I know I havent been floating around blogland much lately - but I do try and read / post on your blogs when I can!!

All is going well - I have dropped body fat and am doing well in the nutrition and training department. YAY!

I just wanted to let you all know I am having a bit of a break from KATFIT - not forever - maybe just a few weeks. I am feeling probably the best I can ever remember feeling and just want to step away just for a bit - and its not because any of you smell!! lol.

I will still visit you all - but wont be posting here - so in the meantime BIG KISSES - SEE YA AROUND LIKE A COMPUTER VIRUS!! xxx

What a Day

2006-05-06T12:51:00.000+09:30

How cool is it when things just go right!?

It seldom happens for me so i enjoy it when it does lol.

I am just so excited i have to share this with everyone - my arm is almost falling off through patting myself on my back!

My week has rocked! I have been so focused on my nutrition and oh so PREPARED - my new rule is make meals for next day at night after work - this happens before ANYTHING else and it has worked SO well for me. Also having some of Raes yummy chicken stuff tucked away is fantastic and so handy!

Drum roll pleeeeeeeease........ i have done ALL of my resistance and running this week - not one missed session!!!!!!! this is SO SO SO HUGE for me after the last few months .... I even prepared my food last night for tonight as i know there is a possibility that i may be going out to watch a band.... im on fire.... instead of focusing on other stuff i have just made it incredibly simple, my two main focuses are
1. Running
2. Nutrition preperation & everything just falls in to place! i'm not doing any '12' week countdowns any more... i'm just running - i have to make tihs for life and having a 'countdown' doesn't work for me.

I guess when one day i'm ready for a marathon i'll have a countdown of some description, but have to get myself out of the 12 week mentality.

I got an ipod nano yesterday for running so just had to load it up for my run this morning! I was up until 1 this morning stuffing around with it, when i woke up at half passed 5 my weary mind come up with all kinds of reasopns why i should stay in bed - however something from deep within made me imagine how i would feel after my run, knowing i had completed AEVERYHING for the week, i felt that good feeling and got straight out of bed.

I then went for a 50 min steady run and didn't stop once and had a smile on my face the whole way!

But wait it didn't stop there! I then got my period, which i know usually sux, however mine was 8 weeks late and i was starting to fret a bit..... so YEEHHAAA another point for Kat, things are on a roll, and to top it all off i put on a pair of pants i bought back home form my hols which were too small when i got here and today IM COMFORTABLY WEARING THEM.....go on try and spoil my day i double dare ya.... i cant think of anything that could knock me down today... i am officially on cloud #9!

I cant wait to e-mail my progress report to coach, for once i won't be ashamed of my week, i will be losing sleep sunday night being so excited to send it to him! Oh, and then of course i get incredibly helpful feedback, even when i've been bad, the obsessivness of my passed fitness life has gone, i am now just really enjoying sliding back into my routine!

Also, i've been away form typing for about half an hour - the hottest bloke i've ever seen was just in here - i let him sit at my desk to do some printing as my customer printer is broken - he had these piercing green eyes, HOT bod, gorgeous tan - and HE WAS SO NICE! omg, as i said my day is just peaking! The gods are happy with me!

I wish hed come back - that was some NICE eye candy! (and i don't usually ever go gaga over anyone! he just did it for me lol!)

an ode to my women friends...

2006-05-04T13:13:00.000+09:30

A Poem for Females!!

I shave my legs, I sit down to pee.

And I can justify any shopping spree.

Don't go to a barber, but a beauty salon.

I can get a massage without getting a hard-on.

I can balance the checkbook, I can pump my own gas.

Can talk to my friends about the size of my a$$.

My beauty's a masterpiece and yes, it takes long.

At least I can admit to others when I'm wrong.

I don't drive in circles, at any cost.

And I don't have a problem admitting I'm lost.

I never forget an important date.

You just gotta deal with it, I'm usually late.

I don't watch movies with lots of gore.

Don't need instant replay to remember the score.

I won't lose my hair, I won't get jock itch.

And just cause I'm assertive, don't call me a bitch!

Don't say to your friends, Oh yeah, I can get her.

In your dreams, my dear, cause I can do better!

Flowers are okay, But jewellery’s best.

Look at me you idiot... Not at my chest!!!

I don't have a problem, With expressing my feelings.

I know when you're lying, You look at the ceiling.

DON'T call me a GIRL, a BABE or a CHICK.

I am a WOMAN.

Get it? You DICK!?!

Born To Try

2006-05-02T12:04:00.000+09:30

Well, as i was saying yesterday I had a hard week, but i made it hard all on my own accord. I am not afraid to admit that i go through these little 'self hate/be awful to myself' patches...it's not an instantaneous thing... i think it all started by being on such a big holiday and letting things get out of control...it just kinda snowballed from there. I will write all this as there may be others out there who go through similar motions. I am not feeling sorry for myself, just trying to rationalise how such a strong willed person can slip back...it's like being on a slippery slope with grease on my feet...one step up two steps back bwahghh

One thing i have realised over the passed few days is how incredibly selfish i have been. I haven't even considered how my behaviour could effect the people who love me around me. When i get in to self destruct mode i don't seem to care about anyone including myself.

I almost come very close to losing the one person that means the most to me.... due to my selfish, unthoughtful behaviour. This has been the pattern.....since on holidays:
- no exercise and terrible eating lead to me feeling pretty down about myself...
- put on weight felt worsed
- didn't care about drinking as i'd put on weight
- drank to make me feel temporarily better - than felt crap so drank again....was too hungerover to run raddah raddah raddah... it felt appauling!

ANyway.... i thought this was one pattern i would NEVER EVER EVER fall back in to... it's just like the boling frog analogy though... sometimes you don't realise you're in hot water until it boils and then it's too late....and what pisses me off even more... is the only reason i end up in this predicament is that i know i have a heap of subconscious negative shit planted by adults as a child... then guess what one day you have to grow up and try and deal with it "normally' where's the instruction manual??!! So i have to try and tap in to my unconcious mind as this is where it seems to all start for me... negative self talk blah blah blah.... it just drives me nuts.... just when i tohught i'd beaten it i went backwards....

GOOD NEWS THOUGH have you ever just had one of those momens of realisation when your life changes in an instant....???!! it happenned to me last night. I have been VERY mellow over the last few days i have titled this phase of my life as "the healing phase" i am just concentrating daily on making myself feel good and being quiet and relaxed... last night i was working in my itunes list and accidentally clicked on Delta Goodrems song "born to try" (uhhmmm accidentally i say.... that's my story and im sticking to it!! :) anyway.... i started crying it was like i just needed to hear it...

yep i was born to try...have had to learn to love....the part i like best is "you gotta make choices....and give up things you like" ....it all just made my world complete... along with a couple of people whom i really respect saying a few things out of the blue to make me realise WHO I AM.... and i have been acting like a total jerk...

My friend Claire said to some girls the other day " yeah, you guys should go running with Kat, shes so motivating" this little voice inside my head kinda went "me ahh, hmm well....shit thats what she thinks of me, how cool, no one has ever said that to me before"

dan said "i love you running, it inspires me" and finally Bella said "when i tell my friends that you are this incredibly gorgeous beautiful 6ft tall....hmmm lol no she didnt say that, what she actually said was "when i tell people about you i tell them that you are incredibly honest and driven and that i feel that i can believe in what you say" ....

It made me think long and hard about why i am trying to be someone i am not happy being... what am i trying to do?? I have to be honest with myself now and start walking the talk.....the one thing that has been my saviour has been fitness.... it may have not been a perfect couple of weeks but it has been the final threads that has kept me hanging in there...

im running quicker, im getting fitter...im prepared with meals... i am coming back....and am never going to look behind me...

7 POWER FACTORS!

2006-05-02T08:12:00.000+09:30

Every successful entrepreneur, company, entertainer or athlete has several key ingredients called 'power factors', that are crucial for playing and achieving at the highest level. Some people have more of one than another, and that's perfectly ok. Its your responsibility to take notice of what you have, what you can develop (strengths) and what you must manage (weaknesses). John Assaraf

The 7 POWER FACTORS:

1. PERSISTENCE

2. ATTITUDE

3. DISCIPLINE

4. VISION

5. PURPOSE

6. FOCUS

7. ACTION

This I do know beyond any reasonable doubt. Regardless of what you are doing, if you pump long enough, hard enough and enthusiastically enough, sooner or later the effort will bring forth the reward.
Zig Ziglar

WEEK 1

2006-05-01T18:57:00.000+09:30

HEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLOOOOOOO!
I missed you guys! LOL!
Well - 1 WEEK DOWN BABY!

Woohoo! My week was S T R O N G!
NUTRITION:
Ok - so my nutrition doesnt change all that much from day to day - clean all the way with variations of lean protein and veggies. I ate pretty much 100% except for 1 night where I went out for dinner with my boyfriend. I ate white fish and had a couple of spoonfuls of sticky date pudding (yum) but didnt have the urge to keep eating and went home feeling guilt free and satisfied!
I can honestly say my body is feeling the benefits of this style of eating. My body feels GOOD! I have tried so many 'diets' - hate that word - from Atkins to carb overload! - but I have finally found a way that works best for me. I may have a bowl of oats some mornings or a piece of fruit mid morning - NATURAL - I DO NOT miss all the supplements which were once prescribed to me!!! Cottage cheese/ protein powder/ carb cycling and cardio twice a day! WTF! Talk about wearing yourself to the ground! If anyone tells you having no carbs in your diet is bad - well yep it is - but look CLOSELY at the types of carbs you are digesting! I know my body reacts better to the carbs from yummy green veggies & salad than rice cakes and brown rice - and also the reduction in dairy (WTF is cottage cheese anyway??) I look back at my previous programs with previous trainers and no wonder I couldnt maintain my results! But...its all a learning curve...and its all personal - what works for one person MAY NOT work for another!!! And those who dont believe in my nutrition choices - I DONT CARE - I feel the best I ever have - and getting results which I KNOW I CAN MAINTAIN - which is the clincher - FOR LIFE NOT JUST 12 WEEKS SEE YA LATER WHATEVER!Look closely at the person you are 'trusting' with your health - my biggest thing is if that person is a POSITIVE PERSON - if they have signs of jealousy towards others/make you feel uncomfortable for asking questions/are not getting results themselves - DONT EVEN GO THERE! The person who is guiding you should be PROFESSIONAL - someone who has experience/qualifications and who is genuinely interested in your progress DO YOUR RESEARCH . - ask questions - speak to their previous clients and feel 100% in your heart - and then you WILL get the results you want - but most importantly you will MAINTAIN THEM FOR LIFE! ;-)

TRAINING:
OK - weight training makes my heart skip a beat. I am currently doing 4 sessions a week - MON/TUE & THUR/FRI - and this week I continued to 'up' my weights. I have really started to visualize the muscle I am using and I say in my head 'COMMITMENT is the key' - I also visualise what I want my body to look like - which is pretty important when Im doing crunches - ABS ABS ABS!!! AAAAGHR! It hurt to laugh on friday - ha (ouch) !! I am doing a lot of shoulder work in my current program - I even did an exercise which was completely new to me - a shoulder roll! - um Rae - OH MY GOD!!! LOL! Just like nutrition - find someone who will PERSONALISE a weight program for you - rather than someone who just spits out a template - make your goals very clear to them and get them to EXPLAIN what the hell you are supposed to be doing! Find someone who you can SPEAK with - this is very important - combine communication with email and the phone - this combination is has worked really well for me - obviously meeting face to face is the best but as I dont trust anyone locally I opted for someone interstate. Being able to HEAR the persons voice has helped me immensely - I tried just communicating via email (which I know works really well for some) but it wasnt until I spoke with my Trainer on the phone did I hear the caring in his voice. This guy wants me to succees more than me!!! haha Remember YOU are in control of your health and fitness and YOU need to be certain this person wants the best for you. If face-to-face and telephone is just not an option - READ AND ANALYSE their emails/blogs etc VERY CAREFULLY - if their is ANY HINT OF NEGATIVITY (bitchiness/jealousy/rudeness)- THROW THEM IN THE BIN WITH YOUR WHITE SUGAR CUBES!! They have NO PLACE in your health & fitness goals!!

MINDSET
As you can tell I AM VERY FOCUSED at the moment and I have made it obvious that NOONE should pull you away from achieving your goals. I am not competing but I am striving for the 'ULTIMATE ME' - have clear goals and make it clear THAT YOU WONT TAKE SHIT from others - particularly those that make you question yourself or things that you know should be done in another way. Everyone needs guidance - but if you have the slightest 'strange feeling' in your gut - walk away. NEGATIVE TRAINERS will sap energy and dilute enthusiasm. Surround yourself with positive people as this will reinforce your own positive thought patterns. Find the right Trainer/Coach/Mentor for you - someone who will push you in the most POSTIVE direction - POSITVITY IS THE KEY TO ALL SUCCESS!

Speak to you all again next week - cant wait to visit all your blogs tonight!!!! BIG KISSES! XXX

A movie I watched this week - 'WERE GONNA RIZE NO MATTER WHAT - THE SKY IS THE LIMIT!'

On my IPOD:
Call On Me by Eric Prydz

Week 2...

2006-05-01T09:57:00.000+09:30

well, the passed week has not been as good as i would like.

I have been mega abusing myself and it's time to get serious and take control! i don't know why i do it, but i've had the roughest week, it's been out of control.

However, we all have bad weeks i am just working on this week being better. Am going home to do Paul McKenna and am going ot have a full body massage today...ohhh lucky lucky me....i CANT WAIT!

I decided to start being kind to my body and to set a standard...heck im only ever going to have the one so i better do the right thing with it huh!

will post properly later...this was just a quick check in so rae would have something new to read.

WHALESHARKS

2006-04-27T19:43:00.000+09:30

hey guys, check out my work blog i just finished it, i am so STOKED!

the link is on the side!

A week in review

2006-04-24T14:22:00.000+09:30

This is a pic of me and a friend before starting on my road to fitness

R- this is my fav pic, taken about 6 months ago! When i look at this picture I can still get that rush of energy and confidence! I felt so good on this night! I have put this pic somewhere i wake up and see it everyday... i am aspiring to get back there, i just felt so awesome!!

So, my first week was a bit shaky. I have decided to only blog once a week from now on also, as i think it will help me stay focused! ie the one week down 11 to go etc! My run was ok this morning, slowly but surely i am getting a little fitter each time i go, now i certainly wouldn't have won any races today.... but i made it the whole way without stopping... which is a goal met for me... even if it was just a SLOOOOOOW jog...i am hoping to make quick progress...because i WANT RESULTS!!

I feel strong in my mind, and finally my heart also, pulling out these old pics have put the fire back in my belly, the wind in my sails... the...hmmm i think you get my drift.

Upwards and onwards...learning from my mistakes but not dwelling on them... the passed is history....tomorrow is exciting.. I WILL GET BACK TO MY HOT PINK TOP BODY!!

"It takes a little courage, and a little self-control. And some grim determination, If you want to reach the goal. It takes a great deal of striving, and a firm and stern-set chin. No matter what the battle, if you really want to win, there's no easy path to glory. There is no road to fame. Life, however we may view it, Is no simple parlor game; But its prizes call for fighting, For endurance and for grit; For a rugged disposition that will not quit."

Navy SEAL Masterchief

"Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another."

Walter Elliott

12 WEEKS

2006-04-23T19:28:00.001+09:30

12 WEEKS FROM TODAY!

Hi all - it really is 12 weeks from today that I am working towards - a body/mind/sould which is fit and healthy and looking pretty damn fine - ha!.

The reasons - 12 weeks until:
- INBA where I meet so many blog buddies!
- I go overseas with my man
(which includes beaches in Italy and parties in LA!)
- 1 year blog birthday!
- My boyfriend completes his 12 week challenge
(comp at the gym)
- I meet my trainer!

...and then 12 weeks + the rest of my life to continue leading this healthy lifestyle and maintaining the body I have!

So in saying all this - I will be posting once a week - on a Sunday - about my adventurous week - so 12 posts in total!

I have decided to be very organised over the coming 3 months and blogging is included in this preparation - kinda like clock work - thus the 12 o'clock featured above...did someone say I was acting all virgo...? *cough*

I will break it up into :
1. NUTRITION
2. TRAINING
3. MIND SET

I have kept it pretty simple so I dont over complicate things - concise and to the point.

I cant wait to tell you all about this week! Speak to you all then!

WOOHOO!

BE EXTROARDINARY

NOT COPYING RAE

2006-04-22T17:50:00.000+09:30

Well, i know that i previously posted that i had 'Rae envy' which actually i still do, love her to bits!

ANYWAY...i know it looks as if im trying to copy her site but i'm not, i've just used the basic template lay out as i like the design, and am going to change text colours, banner colours etc ASAP - it's just i kinda ummm ran in to a brick wall so to speak... the code for this template is different to the code i've been learning on my previous template so will have to nut this one out later... been on the damn thing all day and am now back to square one!!

sheesh....

Take a bow

2006-04-21T10:03:00.000+09:30

Wow, this weeks spun me out. I started off struggling to get back on track but its all come good. I had 2 beers on Tuesday night.... but have gone booze free every other night og=f the week, this has included a night out at the pub for dinner, which i must also proudly say that i ordered an open chicken souvlaki, didnt touch the souvlaki just grilled chicken and salad...good food no beer at pub....that was a mammoth achievement for me, and i also managed to sip on soda waters all night when we went for a staff bbq down the beach and managed pretty much to only eat what i should - i had about 1/4 potato and 2 little pork spare ribs, which i shouldnt of had, but then didnt finish my steak and loaded up with salad!!
Dan and i were the only ones not drinking...hes stopped to support me... and get his own act into gear... what a gem, its about bloody time!!!

Isnt it about time i had something positive to say!!! YAYAYAYAYA am feeling back ....and better for it!!

Sugar Sux

2006-04-20T21:29:00.000+09:30

Ok - so today is FREEZING - whoah - all heaters in my home have increase their temp by at least 10C. I am one of those people who turns the heat up to a point where I can wear summer clothes indoors even though my plants die from extreme heater air... than sit around in layers of jumpers, have a red cold nose and chilly blue fingers....ha! You should see me when I arrive at the gym! LOL UGG boots, jumper, zip hoodie, scarf and beanie - all in pink/baby blue colours - I look like a freakin snow bunny! But because I am quite scruffy - my scarf has 2 pom poms missing from one side - by UGGS are supposed to be light beige but are almost dark brown from all the puddles I step in - my jumper has little holes in it where I accidentally cut it whilst wrapping presents - my beanie is handmade and full of lint balls and my zip hoodie has a broken zip. Snow Bunny meets Street Bunny...!

I was pretty excited to receive my new program this week! I hardly have any legs - have been told to concentrate on my upper body for now - which is fine by me!! I am really focusing on my weight sessions - visualising my muscles during every rep and making sure I dont prolong my supersets (normally because someone wants to talk to me!!!) On the subject of people speaking to me while Im working out...ok, so it is a little frustrating - particularly when its someone who couldnt give a shit that maybe you are trying to focus - but I do love my chats with 'Da Boyz' of the gym (who love their weight training more than their girlfriends *ahem*)...and I thought I was obsessed!!

My nutrition is going well. I have written out my daily plan and have stopped all my 'picking this - oh just a little taste of that' - so many things make up so many calories! So my day will look a little something like this:

wake up & immediately consume coffee

8:30am
- breakfast
- coffee
11:00am
- snack
- coffee
1:00pm
- lunch
- green tea
- vitamin
4:00pm
- snack
- green tea
6:30pm
- dinner A
- dandelion tea
9:00pm
- dinner B

Obviously 2+ litres of water will be in there also. And I have added on the coffee/herbal teas so I keep track with how much soy milk I am drinking - and to encourage me to drink more green tea to aid digestion. Apparently Mint is good for metabolism - so may give that a try. My 'problem minutes' is sometimes from 1 - 3pm - dammit - so I will cut up some celery to munch on during this time. This is the time of day where I get quite tired and if I cant have a power nap I need to combat the 'I need sugar to pull me through' type of thinking!

Pure Sugar = Pure Evil !!

Hey - also beat my sore throat! I have a website I like to refer to during times of my body falling apart - I love the healing kitchen section - Lia you will like this website ;-) x Whole Health MD

Elaine Goodlad

2006-04-19T21:21:00.000+09:30

Fawnia Mondey: How tall are you?
Elaine Goodlad: I'm 5 feet 7 inches.

FM: How much do you weigh?
EG: Between shows 140lbs.

FM:What were you doing before you began lifting weights?
EG: I was always athletically inclined. I used to be involved in track and play a little volleyball as well.

FM: When and why did you start taking weight training seriously?
EG: I had allowed my body to get out of control weight-wise and began with an eating disorder to try to get a handle on my weight gain and depression. I decided that bulimia was not the way, and I needed to take a healthier approach, so off to the gym I went. It probably took about 6 years of "going through the motions" before taking it more seriously and start noticing the changes in my body.

FM: When did you turn pro?
EG: I turned pro after winning the overall at the 2002 Emerald Cup competition in Bellvue, Washington.

FM: Do you have a trainer or someone that keeps you going?
EG: My husband, Terry has been my trainer and coach for the last 15 years. Or do you train yourself?

FM: How long after you started weight training did you compete in your first contest?
EG: Too long... I've only been competing for 1 year.

FM: I hear that you have not trained arms in a long time.
EG: I haven't trained my arms for years seriously.

FM: What parts do you focus most in the gym?
EG:My main focus with my body now is glutes, hams and shoulders.

FM: Tell me about the times of day you train, and how often.
EG: I train in the mornings around 10:00AM with weights and a cardio. I sometimes do another cardio late afternoon or evening if I'm told by my trainer.

FM: Are you happy with where you are today? Is there any choices you would have made differently?
EG: The only thing I would change in my life is ridding myself of needless fear and gaining the confidence in myself much earlier on in my life to do what I am enjoying today.

FM: What advice do you tell those who are interested in contests.
EG: Compete if you have the desire in your heart, and don't let fear stop you if that is the only obstacle. Don't let fear run/ruin your life.

FM: What are your hobbies?
EG: Drawing, pottery, Harley riding, reading.

FM: Favorite TREAT foods?
EG: Krispy Kremes, Pizza, Cheeseburgers, Cheetos, Chocolate.... What isn't?

FM: Favorite Diet/Clean foods for when you are preparing for a show?
EG: Atlantic Salmon, hot cereal.

FM: Are you extremely strict the whole 12 weeks, or diet longer/shorter?
EG: 8-12 weeks is about right, depending on how far I get out of shape.

FM: What is your body fat % competing, and when you are not competing?
EG: I never get my body fat tested. We just go by how I look.

FM: What did you drink/take before going on stage to appear more vascular, or do you even bother?
EG: I eat cookies and or chocolate before going on stage to carb up quickly.

FM: I know you don't drink, and I admire you so much. Please tell me how you stay away from drinking, or help others change their un-healthylifestyles.
EG: I've never cared much for alcohol and would never waste calories on drinking. I'm just not interested in it, and definitely can't judge anyone who may have a taste for alcohol. My advice for anyone though would be to do anything in moderation :o)

FM: Would you mind commenting on the topic of bulimia?
EG: Bulimia and other eating disorders don't always have much to do with food, but underlying issues that need to be addressed. For me, this illness was a form of immediate gratification, yet the guilt after binging would cause me to want to purge to punish myself. Unfortunately, food was my best friend through tough times. It becomes a vicious cycle when you hate yourself and use food to make you feel better, then worse. Get help and find out what the underlying issues are and start taking steps to liking yourself for who you are. If there's something you don't like about yourself, change it. You have the power.

FM: Why you want to start educating people.
EG: It's nice to help people get through issues that you once had problems with. You may save someone from going through the painful process the hard way, or you may shed some light for someone that helps them change their course of action in difficult times.

FM: How long have you been bulimic.
EG: Since 1983. I may not act on it any longer or for quite some years now, but the illness is something you may always struggle with; you just get better at talking to yourself about it. It's like an alcoholic that no longer drinks. They still must avoid certain issues or places.

FM: How has it affected your life.
EG: In the long run it's made me stronger as I've overcome something serious and moved on with my life and fixed the issues that brought it on in the first place.

FM: Where can people seek help if they or someone they know is bulimic? There are specific counselors for such illnesses.
EG: Here are some helpful sites that I have found online:

* www.eating-disorder.tripod.com
* www.healthyplace.com
* www.rcpsych.ac.uk

The Viscious Cycle

2006-04-18T10:49:00.000+09:30

How easy is it to fall back in to an old rut which you had to tirelessy work your butt off to get out of. My recent holiday lead me back down a road i so hated being on. It only just hit me last night that the boozing is what caused my temporary bout of depression!

It changes everything, before i even had time to realise it i'd fallen back in to the old cycle, boozing, being too hung over to do cardio, getting down because i felt lazy, then drinking because i felt down! i can not believe that after everything i have come through, the tears, the tantrums, the celebrations.... i went back, i got caught up back in it all.

So now where to from here?! Well, staying booze free is number one priority, as i now know just how little it takes to throw me off my axis! I have reevaluated my goals, made them shorter etc, so i feel as if i am achieving part of my goals weekly.

My nutrition is fine, indact believe it or not its been really good since i've got back. I just now need to focus on making better decisions for me ALL THE TIME. I've got to find some love for myself...i don't know how but i am working on it!!

I am going for a run tonight, rain, hail, or shine it's part of my plan. 4kgs in four weeks, and im not going to drop anything if im sitting on my arssse

Giantmicrobe Virus Toys!

2006-04-16T20:33:00.000+09:30

Oh boy - and you thought I was just going to collect suffed McDonalds toys...These rock! Particularly now that I have a sore throat! (block last 2 words from memory - self healing program)

Giant Microbes!

Who would have thought it – a cuddly toy in the shape of a virus! But, these cuddly characters are incredibly endearing and educational too. Each one comes with a detailed scientific description and photograph of what he looks like under the microscope, along with medical tips on how to avoid picking up these ‘bugs’ in daily life. Children seem to be totally fascinated by them, and it really helps when explaining all about why they are feeling poorly. The perfect gift to accompany a Get Well Card. A brilliant present for medical students, doctors, nurses, etc – You can soon understand why they are becoming amazingly popular! Start collecting now.
Giantmicrobe-Sore Throat

Giantmicrobe-Stomach Ache

Giantmicrobe Flu Bug

Something Fishy

2006-04-16T18:22:00.000+09:30

After reading a post on Lias blog on Binge Eating - the facts - I wanted to mention Something Fishy

Our Mission: Tony and I are dedicated to raising awareness... emphasizing always that Eating Disorders are NOT about food and weight; They are just the symptoms of something deeper going on, inside. Merely a husband and wife creative team (we are not doctors), we are determined to remind each and every sufferer that they are not alone, and that complete recovery is possible. If you are the loved-one of someone that suffers, use this website to educate yourself. The more you know about Eating Disorders, the more you are equipped to provide the support your loved-one needs. If you have an Eating Disorder, you can find help. You can recover. And you deserve to do both. We are so thankful to have had the opportunity to touch the lives of over six million sufferers and their loved-ones and hope to continue to do so for many more years. We will never stop believing that there is HOPE for everyone, and we will never stop promoting that COMPLETE RECOVERY is possible!

The forum has over 50,000 members and is extremely informative and supportive. I hope it is helpful to anyone who needs the information x

Note:

2006-04-14T19:06:00.000+09:30

Hi all - if you are wondering where the music is coming from - its Christina Aguleira 'Fighter' - scroll all the way down and you will see it at the bottom of the blog.

It was so cool having a 'conference call' *ahem* (yahoo messenger) with Rae, Lia and Kat this evening - god help us when we meet in real life!!!

xxx

Whoah!

2006-04-14T18:18:00.000+09:30

...and Rae - Lia - Kat didnt believe me....

Happy Easter

2006-04-14T15:56:00.000+09:30

I know - Im sorry - I had to!

Poor Mr. Hippity Hoppity...!!!

Public Humiliation

2006-04-13T17:50:00.000+09:30

Ok, since i have been finding it hard to get back on track i am publically humiliatig myself by posting this pic of me taken yesterday, look at my stomach let alone my legs!!!! Grr, ok, so this is for me as my reminder of why i do what i do!

I bought nico patches AGAIN today, i have been so stressed about quitting smoking i've ended up smoking double the amount which i must say has not helped at the slightest with me wanting to get on good terms with "cardio" let alone my beer swilling friends which mislead me.

ENOUGH i have had it... i am sick of it... bella convinced me to buy the patches and u know what, i am so relieved!! now i feel as if quitting will be easy because i won't be having to deal with the crappy withdrawals!!

I am still doing what i am meant to do, but have been lacking the energy and enthusiasm to be living true to myself. I am going for a run tonight, i can't wait!!

I bulk cooked raes delightful chicken/tomato sauce/veg meal yesterday and had left over veg which has given me ample supply of veg for at least 2 more days of meals. I didn't think to reduce what i used, Rae has 100g veg vs my 50g.... duh... well i have never been a mathemetician...afterall.

A lady come in today pushing chocolate for kindy fundraising... i gave her a 'you gotta be kidding" look, i just though like i want them around... then my boss proceeded to buy like 4 boxes to keep out for our customers... double grrrr.... as i've got tired tonight i picked at a couple... BAD MOVE i didn't even want them initially then got blood sugar peaks for my effort... when will i learn?>

Happy Meal

2006-04-13T11:42:00.000+09:30

ok - over the last couple of days (including this one) I have been soooo hungry! Its kinda frustrating as I like to evenly space my 6 meals eg: 8:30am / 11pm / 1:30pm / 4:30pm / 6pm / 9pm - but its now 12:12pm and I want lunch already!!! So have had a mug of dandellion, 500ml water and am now sipping a 250ml soda water....I was thinking about taking a mint - which sometimes puts me off eating - kinda like brushing your teeth - but strangely sometimes eating a mint makes me hungrier! LOL!

On a good note - I am still going up in weights - woohoo! I have really slowed down my reps and am huffing and puffing away - Im stretching a lot infront of the tv at night to reduce any DOMS - even though that is a good feeling in itself! I have been training Mon / Tue / Thur / Fri - but this week I have moved it around a bit because of the long weekend. Luckily I have my own key to the gym - but its a bit spooky training in their all by myself! LOL - I feel like a celebrity superstar with their own gym in a section of their mansion!!

Im going out for lunch today with my boyfriend which should be fun - we are going to a 'grill house' - a whole lotta protein to chose from - all measured in grams and cooked to your liking...sound like my kinda place!

Saw a McDonalds ad this morning...when you buy a Happy Meal you get a cute stuffed toy dog...I noticed they have a toy that looks like my own puppy...dammit - what a dilemma - not that Im tempted to eat The Happy Meal - but I hate going into that place...it stinks - maybe I could just do a 'drive-by', pay for the Happy Meal - and then give it back to them minus the free toy....bet that would have never happened before!! LOL!! - Do you dare me? Come on...!!! hahaha x

300TH POST !!

2006-04-12T16:25:00.000+09:30

WOW! Its our 300th post! WOOHOO!

Umm...here is Parasite Hilton singing us a 300th post/birthday song...*ahem*

Present for Kat...

2006-04-12T16:20:00.000+09:30

I think having a little orange butterlfy follow you all day is such a good sign!! x

Onthe (right) road again

2006-04-10T10:37:00.000+09:30

Hi fellow bloggers!

Well, the passed 8 weeks has been chaotic and really tried my patience and sanity! It has been a massive test. I failed the first half on my holidays whjich resulted in massive weight gain, then on this part by being back, moving and unmoving due to cyclones i've been doing ok but not as well as i hoped. There was a breakthrough this morning though, i had minimal food in my fridge and was just not going to bother with breakfast, then pulled myself up and made do with what i had and was just so stoked that having my nutrition ready for the day has become second nature, i can't not do it now! YAY!

So, this week is really my first week back on my program properly, i have 4 runs and 2 resistance to do and reckon i will easily be able to have a 100% week!! That's all i'm aiming for, i've worked harder so this should be managable! I have a friend up for 10 days, who thankfully is staying with the guys i work with, i was stressed that it would be hard for me to stay on track whilst she was here but now i know that what i do is a standard pert of my life, regardless of visitors.

I have put all of my inspirational stuff back up and finished rewriting my goals yesterday so am feeling really confident! I just can't wait to shift a couple of these kilos but am not stressed as i know that if i do what i have to do it will just happen! yay yay yay am feeling positive and strong, am off now to bulk buy so i can bulk cook snacks for the next week!

Refugee

2006-04-08T11:41:00.000+09:30

Well, yesterday was a HUGE day. Dan had to work til 4pm so i went home to pull my van apart on my own!! Alas, my Ningaloo Blue boys (skipper, decky and boss) came over on their own free will and helped me! What gems... we just beat the rain. We stayed at their house last night and had a bit of a "cyclone party".

The cyclone turned out to be quite a 'fizzer' the strongest wind we got was when we were pulling everything apart! So we get to practice putting our annexe back up again!! What a load of fun that should be lol. On a positive note though, we're hoping to improve our site when we relocate. We loved where we were, only the pad under our annexe is mud... and well...when it rains (which it hardly ever does, but when it does everything tends to flood) we're thinking that our floor will probably turn to crap and we wont be able to use the annexe ...which is well... kind of pointless... anyway, we'll see what they can come up with.

Am getting stuck in to the running as of Mon. My nutrition yesterday was good for first 2 meal, ended up skipping 3 & 4 due to just not realising i was even hungry in the midst of the chaos, and of course by the evening i was famished, i drank beer and ate shit. I FORGOT TO EMPTY MY FRIDGE IN MY CARAVAN i took clothes but forgot the food, so bella this leads me to think that i wouldn't be that much of a survivalist after all ROFLMAO.

THANK YOU XXX

2006-04-08T07:29:00.000+09:30

A BIG THANK YOU to everyone who posted on Mindis blog - its support like that which shows how positive our blog community is - I find it amazing how its possible to let someone know from the other side of the world that you are inspired/motivated by them - I LOVE THE INTERNET! LOL!

Well, I have almost finished the first week of my 12 week countdown...and it has gone great guns! I shocked myself yesterday when I went to a friends house and she was eating 'crunchie cadbury little easter eggs'...and you know what? - they could have been chicken feed for all I cared. The sugar/craving didnt even register...it was the weirdest feeling...a kind of relief I guess - relief that I was not even going to go there in my mind - kinda like smoking. When I quit (about 3 years ago now) I just pretended cigarettes didnt exist - it would have been like putting a piece of chalk in my mouth a trying to light it...

I have to thank my nutrition though for being the main key in reprogramming my sugar cravings. My nutrition is really working for me - and I dont feel like I need anything else - and even though they are not the most interesting meals - I dont feel I am missing out on anything and my training is stronger than it ever has been before!

The only thing I have added is a warm mug of Dandellion tea in the evenings. I love this stuff - its so tasty and so warming now that it is freezing at night. I use the Symingtons from the supermarket...talking about chickens...this really looks like chicken feed...but 1tbs mixed with a little soy milk and boiling water...hmmm...might go and make myself some now!

The Taj Ma Hudson

2006-04-07T11:57:00.000+09:30

Well, after taking neally 2 days to set ourselves up how we want to be and living in our new home for 3 days we have just discovered we have to go and pull it all down as we're going to get hit by a cyclone tonight...you lil ripper...bastard bastard bastard.....shit shit shit..... im OVER it!

anyway...here's our little home which will be carrying us around australia ...

(ignore the mess please.... no time to clean cooking meals for day:)

My gym!! My Bed

My kitchen My fridge!! eek its tiny

the outside the outside with our annexe

now i know it looks teensy and cramped but we're actually very comfortable!

Blog Support Network

2006-04-05T18:34:00.000+09:30

**ANNOUNCEMENT**

Hi guys - I wanted to ask you all to do something...

I just visited Mindi OBriens blog - and noticed an 'anonymous' posted the comment 'judging from the number of comments, i'd say your fans are losing interest... since it appears you have too.'

I dont know Mindi - have never met her - infact I only discovered her blog a few days ago - but think its just so shit for someone to post a comment on her blog that is so negative. Mindi obviously works her ass off to achieved the body she has and goes out of her way to motivate and inspire others.

So - when you get a moment - could you post a comment on her blog - to show 'our blog network' is positive and supports Mindi and her path to a 'strong' happiness.

www.mindiobrien.blogspot.com

IM BACK!

2006-04-05T17:54:00.000+09:30

and hopefully in 12 months i can look remotely like this??!!

Well i'm back and in training. My BPM were awful on my first run... i am damn unfit and totally embarrassed about it. I'm back on track with my nutrition and am feeling very confident. It's good to be home and even better to be back in my routine.

Tommorow i will post pics of the "Taj Ma Hudson".... if it's possible for me to work out in my living conditions and eat properly it's possible for anyone... lol you'll understand when you see the size of my fridge!

10kg of chicken is a lot of chicken...

2006-04-04T06:47:00.000+09:30

Unreal banana peel. I have been having THE BEST weight sessions. I mean REALLY good! So good infact I am atually surprising myself in the gym - increasing weights at ever session - strong technique - abs hard and sit ups are getting easier (now use a 10kg plate - thinking about increasing to 15kg but my boobs would be squashed flat! haha)

But best of all is 'Raes Chicken Mince Recipe' - DAMN ITS TASTY!

I bought 10kg of organic chicken mince (I kid you not) and discovered THE YUMMIEST sauce to go with it (can you tell I am having a day where everything is going my way?! ha!) Its called Tofu Bolognase - by Vegetable Creations - www.vegetablecreations.com - This stuff ROCKS!!

I am doing another big cook up tomorrow morning - using the Glad box thingis - again thanks Rae - and voila - organised / prepared / and ready! YAY!

This is an example of how I have been training in the gym *ahem*...

ROBOT!

2006-04-03T21:36:00.000+09:30

OMG YOU MUST CHECK THIS 'ROBOT BODYBUILDER' OUT!

Mindi O'Brien!

2006-04-03T07:01:00.000+09:30

Um.. - OH MY GOD THIS WOMAN IS INCREDIBLE!

Introducing Mindi O'Brien.

Im sorry my eyes are glued to the screen and I am barely able to type...

Visit Mindi:

www.mindiobrien.blogspot.com

www.mindiobrien.com

Off We Go

2006-04-02T09:27:00.000+09:30

We're leaving today and will be home tomorrow! Yay, bring on the routine!

*

2006-04-01T19:22:00.000+10:30

Had to post this. His name is Freedom - and underneath the caption says 'with Freedom for all' - so inspiring. Good night x

FREEDOM!

2006-04-01T18:25:00.000+10:30

Ok - today is '3 MONTHS UNTIL HOT BODY ACHIEVED' and you know what? Im really ready for it! Seriously - I am ready for what lies ahead during next 12 weeks! I cant believe its almost been a year since I first started to 'learn about' correct training and nutrition - ONE YEAR!! And this 'better' way of living is just so natural to me now. I dont 'fight' against it like I used to - infact I dont even think about it as much as I used to...and I used to think/obsess about it A LOT!

I can see changes in my body shape since starting with my trainer - and I LIKE them! He tells me to just 'LIVE'- that nutrition and training should not be my entire focus - to just concentrate on 'LIVING'- follow his guidelines and it will all just fit together like a jigsaw puzzle. And you know what? I never doubted him. Not once have I got a bad vibe or a moment where I felt like he didnt care. HE CARES!...and the puzzle is fitting together nicely!

I have always been very conscientious - spiritually / mentally / physically - I try and find balance in my life and I live life to the fullest. I am extremely goal orientated, focused and I aim high and achieve 'big'. ('big' being things that I perceive as great for me and my loved ones!) I thrive on challenges and the thought of 'I could never do that' has NEVER - and I am serious - NEVER crossed my mind. Its a matter of whether I chose to do it or not.

During the past 12 months of my 'fitness' journey I have become a 'richer' person. No doubt about it - for 2 main reasons:

1. I now RESPECT my body - I look after it - I make sure I am not punishing or treating it unfairly - this is the only 'body' I am getting - no exchanges or refunds - this is it! I used to treat my clothes better than my body! ha! Not any more - hell no - and NO ONE will stand in my way or persuade me to treat it in any other way!

2. During this journey I have made connections with people that have completely enhanced all I have ever wanted to be and more. These people have helped shaped who I am today - someone who used to struggle REALLY BADLY with 'body image' but who has made such changes that even I dont believe it sometimes!! Their guidance, support, kindness, generosity, energy and love has been instumental in my growth and I will be forever grateful and thankful to them. Never did I expect to form such friendships over the internet! Never did I expect to have a blog! - let alone have a joint one with Kat! I know I will NEVER be alone now that I have these people in my life - even if I am on a desserted island....but as long as I have my laptop! LOL!

Phew - I know this post is a little 'deep' but as I embark on the next 12 weeks of my journey I wanted to reflect on the past 9 months - and know that when I have completed 12 months in total - I will have achieved the body-fitness-nutrition-training-over all APPRECIATION OF ME - WHO I AM - AND WHAT I AM ABOUT!

Big deep breath - am about to dive in - but this time I know I can SWIM!

The feeling is FREEDOM -

SPLASH!!!!!!!!!!

xxx

Stayin' Alive

2006-03-30T20:30:00.000+10:30

ah ah ahahah.... well, we're still in Bunbury. We chose to stay as the cyclone swung in on a direct path to Exmouth. At this stage we will probably be waiting a couple more days for raid to subside so we don't get stuck with the flooding. The winds up there are over 250 km's an hour....thank god we didn't get up there last week, our van would had to of been packed up and we would of had to of stayed with friends....i've got my fingers crossed for everyone up there and will keep u up to date with what's happenning!

xxx

It's not a joke anymore

2006-03-30T09:14:00.000+10:30

i just called the producer of channel 7's weather program as i saw Grant Denia back in Exmouth. Believe me, when they were with us a few months back i didn't expect to see them again for a long time, but here they are back again in Exmouth. They are expecting cyclone glenda to hit the coast today. All we can do now is sit and wait and prey for our friends. we feel ripped off becasue we're not there .....we just hope it bloes over...

xxxxxxxxx

Food for Thought

2006-03-30T00:43:00.000+10:30

Valid excuse??

Cyclone Glenda

2006-03-29T22:20:00.000+10:30

She's a beauty!!

Dan and I are all packed up sitting in bunbury ready to head north to exmouth, however there's a cyclone standing between us and our destination!!

Apparently we're heading off anyway! Bloody stupid idea if you ask me, but what the driver says goes, and since i'm not driving i have to go too!

Most people drive away from cyclones, us, we're driving straight there!?! CRAZY!

So, we won't go straight to Exmouth, as having everything blown away is too greater risk, but we're going and will probably stay half way, which leaves us with one problemo...the roads will more than likely be flooded GREAT....never mind, when we're stranded in the middle of nowhere guess what i'll be saying??!

"I told you so"

Will post quickly in the morning when we've read the latest weather update.

xxxx

Blonde Garcia

2006-03-29T19:18:00.000+10:30

- Here are the pics of Carmen Garcia as a blonde....I reckon my entire 2 boobs are the size of her 1 boob - if that...ho hum!!!!

Biggest Winner

2006-03-29T15:48:00.000+10:30

I was just doing some 'net surfing' as you do - and was looking at the 2005 Body For Life winners. There are some SERIOUSLY INCREDIBLE body transformations! - Elizabeth Miller (below) is just one example - its all very inspiring. I dont mind what Body For Life does - it much better than Atkins IMO - I guess the reason for this post is my gym is about to do a competition called 'Biggest Winner' 12 week transformation competition. I cant wait to see how the members go with it - it will be VERY INTERESTING!! I know most are feircely competative - hope it stays 'fun..'!! (yeah right - haha!) Is anyone elses gym doing a similar thing? The Biggest Loser tv program has really started to catch on! Great I say!

Bicep beauties

2006-03-29T15:24:00.000+10:30

Hey Rae - not only ABS like 'those' but also BICEPS like 'this'!!! (or 'guns' as you would say...) HAHA - its going to be soooo sweet! ! xxx

Madge is #1

2006-03-28T19:59:00.000+10:30

AAAGHR! Just a quick inspirational pic before CSI starts - both Las Vegas & NYC - then its Real Crime afterwards...Rae - you aint seen crime obsessed until you meet me....ROFLMAO!

Eye Twitch = Crazy Frog Bella

2006-03-27T07:38:00.000+10:30

Ok - I have finally pulled myself together after Rae & Kats meeting....green with envy!! ;-) But not to worry as I have asked them both so many questions I feel like I was there also! LOL!

My last few days have been very frustrating. I have had a twitching eye for almost a week!!! The worst thing is it twitched like a crazy when I spoke to people - so embarrasing...and then a couple of days ago I started to get weird tummy cramps - not inside, but on my skin...and it was so painful I couldnt stand straight.

I didnt know what was going on! BUT THANKFULLY my trainer suggested I take Muscle Eze - as maybe I was lacking magnesium....and after 2 days of taking this 'magic potion'....VOILA - no more weird ass titches or cramps!!! woohoo!!! I also did some research on this twitch mayhem and found the funniest blog - some guy said he had a twitch - and almost 1000 people responded!!!- some of the posts had me in stitches (not twitches...*ahem*) - its worth a read...

www.jasonclarke.net/archives/2005/03/31/eye-twitch/
(why the hell can I not work out how to insert links...need help please...)

One of the posts even describes the meaning of the twitches location!!!
1. top left eye lid twitch; means fortune (little or lots).
2. lower left eye twich; you could be crying later.
3. top right eye twitch; FOOD..treats coming your way.
4. lower right eye twitch; always a bad sign.

I had number 2 - I guess its true as I very nearly was on the verge of tears...LOL!

This eye twitch was even more annoying than that f****ing crazy frog...!!

Style Guru

2006-03-26T21:45:00.000+10:30

i've just come from Chontelles blog and it got me thinking. I miss being a girly girl....i have felt so blahh here i have have been making no effort with myself... like for example a month ago if i was to have been meeting rae i would have made sure i put make up on and was wearing really nice clothes instead i was so comfortable just being daggy old me.... in my 'granny' jumper. I just paid $80 for that jumper only to be told by my 18 yr old brother i look like a nanna...since hes hardly a style guru i chose to ignore him...maybe i should have listened!

nnnnneeeeeway.....right...andrew has put a fire cracker up my ass....im movin baby to bigger and better places... and when im back to feeling good, im gonna get those hot new jeans (the ones i didnt buy because i felt blah) and get out of my loose ones....

i want to have somewhere to wear some hot clothes... workin on it...and am VERY EXCITED!

WHAT A DAY!

2006-03-25T23:06:00.000+10:30

Well the last couple of days have been AWESOME. I met the adorable Rae, love her to bits, shes as gorgeous as what you would think! I was a bit dissapointed i felt off and didnt feel like my vibrant usual self, i am getting a cold, thats why i felt so crappy!

my sessions with andrew were AWESOME! I learned so much from him and he helped me heaps! From now on i am going to be focusing on my running as i love it and i can do it anywhere at anytime whilst im travelling around australia. Im really looking forward to starting my next program! Another learning curve for me! I got the annexe for my van yesterday, i was stoked, it's exactly what i wanted, i can so visualise myself doing situps and resistance training in there!!

Here are some pics from today!
Me and the lovely Rae - NB see the blonde hair piece??!! i am in 'RAE ENVY' - damn shes hot

Here is a pic of me and Rae at the gym - behind us on the wall are pics of all the successful fitness competitors andrew had trained! they are all so awesome, as andrew said to me "everyone recieves the same coaching and info which is correct for them its what u do with it that makes the difference" . There are so many he is obviously SO good at his job! How lucky am i!!??

Below is a pic of my lil sis and my cute as a button nephew jett.... ohhh i love them both to pieces and i cant think about not seeing his gorgeous little face everyday!! He is SO SO SO CUTE!

A Six Pack Willy really exists...!!!

2006-03-25T18:33:00.000+10:30

I 'stumbled' across this seriously weird record....I wanted to find out more info but couldnt bring myself to google the words 'six pack' and 'willy'...!!!....*shudder*....ROFLMAO!!!

virtual me!

2006-03-24T20:57:00.000+10:30

HOLY COW! Look what I was ablt to do on the ADIDAS website...cool. But I cant see much tone - dammit - they need a 'defining ab' button also!! LOL!

My Virtual Body - I selected ADIDAS
www.mvm.com

CANT GET NO SLEEP

2006-03-24T07:21:00.000+10:30

It's 4.51am, i can't sleep because i AM so EXCITED about meeting Rae and my PT Andrew! Im going up to Perth today we are picking up our annexe for our van and Andrew is going to design a program for me to do whilst living out of my van equipped with just a fitball a set of resistant bands and some dumbells, which is all i have to work with i'm afraid as theres no gym in exmouth.

A friend of mine is a skipper and works in the bass strait on a rig, i referred her to andrew and she is THRIVING just as is everyone else i know who trains with him. Although i have been warned that up until now i haven't been squatting and should be prepared to be VERY sore afterwards. I feel so fortunate to have such an awesome trainer such as Andrew guiding me through this next stage of my fitness. I've been with him now for about 3 months, his diets are awesome and i've never known anyone to be so switched on when it comes to womens bodies and diets! No shit, the guy knows more about my own body than me! He also cares ALOT i'm sure if he didn't have to earn money from it he'd do it for free as his passion emminates, it's nice to be training with a really positive and uplifting person!On my new programs i can feel the results, i have a good diet and don't have to near on kill myself to transform my body lol.

Ok, admittadley i haven't been on track for the last few weeks, but u know what....it's not doing my head in as much as some previous programs, on previous programs i found i was OBSESSIVE and it ruled my life, i just want fitness to be a permanent fixture in my life not the be all and end all! I didn't want to be a competitor i just wanted to lead a fit and healthy life.

All this had got both Bella and I talking. By the last 6 weeks of the last program i did, i had stuck to it 100%, diet and cardio and weights, by week 6 i was looking so gaunt that my friends and partner were pulling me up asking when it was going to stop. I wasn't building muscle because i was doing WAY too much cardio and was burning it off instead of building it up, and the result was a very 'little' me, which is what i thought i wanted, but when i got there it looked wrong. This is when Bella and I started exploring other ideas and options. Over lengthy phone conversations we had realised that our bodies felt like crap and our lives had started to revolve around these programs.... which i guess is fine if you're only doing one, we were both on number 3 and didn't feel as if what we were doing fit in with our current goals and beliefs of fitness for life, hence the name of this blog, so started talking. I was blown away... i almost cried, it wasn't just me!

We both felt crap, our bodies felt crap and we both decided that being fit and healthy was supposed to make you feel great, not under nourished and lethargic. (nb. i understand that at some stages of finess levels this is normal, but what we're talking about continued for a fair while) also we felt like we were left 'high and dry' what do we do now?! We no longer had any concept of what was 'normal or healthy'.... actually we didn't to start off with and that's why we started our fitness missions in the first place! We finished more confused than when we started. annnnyyyyyyyway, thanks to an awesome friend I was put on to this great trainer who has helped me take back control of our fitness instead of letting fitness control me.

It had got to a point where everything revolved wholey and solely around what i'd eaten, i'd stopped fishing ...and anyone that knows me knows how passionate i am about that and the only time i spent with my gorgeous fiance i spent either talking about fitness or obsessing about food and that wasn't very often because he wasnt a very high priority any more becasue i felt guilty for hanging with him instead of working out ....everything revolved around these programs. I supposed i didn't even realise until i'd finished, not until i could sit back and review it all.....i supposed it was the only way to stay on such a program that was so demanding. BUt i was prepared to do it and i am still glad i've been through it as it was such an educational process, in a way i kind of know what can be done to shift a lot of weight quickly and i also now know what not to do to stay fit for life.

I've met some amazing and not so great people throughout this journey, its been a wicked ride! Bella and i are about to embark on another leg of our journey, be prepared to be blown away by a double 'progress pics' post somewhere in July. The next few months will be so exciting!! I can train, get results and feel awesome whilst transforming my body.... BRING ON JULY!

ahemm

2006-03-23T10:37:00.000+10:30

hi. well, i am missing blogger land SO much. Been out on the funny farm again for a few days, and after my last attempt at blogging on dial up i didnt even bother!

THanks so much to everyone for your support. 1 more sleep now until i meet andrew my PT. I can't wait! THis is my current situation!

* Clothes have seemed to shrink ALOT in this southern water....am wondering whether it happens to everyone....but like my clothes are seriously like a size too small and i am laying down to do my jeans up *sob*

* Also, my stomach and hips have seemed to have swollen with the changing weather....

* and it took me like 12 months to get how i was before....and u know what, i wasn't happy there....but now im here i so wanna go back and cherish every single second i loved my stomach in my hot little boob tubes and low cut jeans. I now have bubble hips where my lovely slim lined waist was (only i didnt notice it was slim lined as i was striving to get them even slimmer and now i waaaaana go back) & i have a red welt forming on my forhead from the constant banging against the wall!!!

anyyywayyyy.....im sure when i see andrew tomorrow it will all be back on track.... I CANT wait........

2006-03-22T18:25:00.000+10:30

just wanted to say I have just had the biggest adrenalin rush!! - and was able to clearly visualize myself with toned biceps - woohoo!! ok - im going to jump on the cross-trainer for a cardio burst - i wish i had these 'momentary crazy rushes of pure energy' every afternoon!!! - and no i didnt have caffeine in my grilled chicken for Meal 4....!!!

Jennifers cardio tips...ahem

2006-03-21T21:36:00.001+10:30

I wonder if Jennifer Aniston has special names for her cardio sessions...

'Angelina is an Ass Fat Blaster' or 'Mad at Brad Butt Burner'

Bet she doesnt miss a cardio session with names like this...!!

(found this on one of my first blogs...its still relevant! ha!)

RED BELLA TEAM!

2006-03-21T16:20:00.000+10:30

Woke up this morning with a freakin cold sore!!! :-(
I hate these things!!!!! grr. I can go almost a year with out one and then BAM I have 3 in the space of 4 months!!! Mum said I must be kissing frogs - yeah the biggest one of all - my boyfriend!! - who incidentally - has NEVER had a cold sore - lucky bastard. I keep thinking I will get one on my wedding day - then quickly think about something else as I know the power of visualization!! lol!

Thought this old post was interesting (6 months):
I have put in place 'strategys' to achieve my 'new goals' - and lucky me I have my fantastic boyfriend who is happy to support me all the way (god I love him!)I also have Jillian Michael from The Biggest Loser - who has also agreed to support me as my new fridge 'pin up girl' - who is ready to yell every time I look at her: 'TEAM RED BELLA IS A WINNER!'

Well anyway, I bought her book 'Winning by Losing' and its actually REALLY good. Not that I thought it would be really shit - but I did think maybe kinda poo. I like how she is no bullshit and is quite direct in her writing (I hate fluff diet books) She has devised a "3-S" approach, which she says is grounded in the three areas where you need to put in the work to get results: self,science and sweat. I will let you know what I think of it all when I finish - but so far so good!

'By taking the time to look after yourself, you are reminding yourself and stating to the world that you are worth it, that you know you deserve the best life has to offer. Once you project this kind of attitude, you'll see that your reality will adapt to affirm you.'

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAE!!!

2006-03-21T10:31:00.000+10:30

I love this pic of you and Michelle xxx

www.raecattach.blogspot.com

Canal Rocks

2006-03-20T10:02:00.000+10:30

this is the resort we stayed at last week, it was 4 glorious days of peace and relaxation!!

Little Miss Piggy

2006-03-20T09:10:00.000+10:30

Sing
Manamanah " I feel like a piggy"
Manamanah " I just feel CRAP"
Manamanah "..... this is just getting OLD isn't it?! manamah manamah manamah nah nah nah nah nah

FESS SESSION: I've been eating a whole lotta crap since being on this holiday and am unsure why i presumed i wouldn't have a 'scary' result from it! All of my hard work had just gone down the tube. I'm upset that i didn't stay focussed, i'm about to meet my PT for the first time "hullo" do u not think that would be enough to kick my own ass and stay on track?!

Anyway, this going between places, trying to buy food, let alone try and train is bloody frustrating. I'm mad mad mad at myself! I feel like i'm in a lose lose situation. ALl my fellow bloggers are going so strong... i wanna be there too! I don't want to leave my family but i am looking forward to returning to normality!

Going to be a great week!

2006-03-19T11:01:00.000+10:30

Howdy - today is Sunday and it is such a gorgeous day - no wind - 22C - sunny - love it!

I am ready for such a strong week in my weights and nutrition. I can see now that my body has toned and lost body fat. Still a bit to go until I am happy so am going to be really focused this week (and the coming weeks) so I can see more changes.

I recieved my new program and it looks fantastic - I will have it for 4 weeks so I want as much progress as possible.

My 'skinny jeans' are looking more possible - was going to try them on today - but will leave it until the end of the week...it should be interesting!

I have been really thirsty lately - not sure why that is...I guess its a good thing -helps me stick to my 3ltr a day! How much water do all of you drink? I buy 1.5ltr drink bottles and make sure I fill it up twice a day - its a good way for me to keep track...otherwise I have a sip here and there and lose track!!

Hope everyone is well! ;-)

...or you can just stay hydrated by doing this....*ahem*

The Return of Kat

2006-03-18T08:13:00.000+10:30

Holy Smoke, i go away for a week and Bella goes crazy on the blog!! Love your work Bella it looks awesome.... however im still trying to figure out the chat thing (must admit i haven't tried very hard yet) but am on to that next!

I'm still trying to catch up on everybodies blogs, a lot sure does happen in a week!

Wanna know where i've been??? A gorgeous little place called Canal Rocks Beach Resort in Yallingup WA. It was so awesome!! Our view was magical, we had a spa!! and it was just so nice being all on our own!!

I will post some pics later on today so you call all be green with jealousy lol.... it really was that good!!

Kat who??

2006-03-16T22:11:00.000+10:30

Ok - since Kat has been away I have had to fend for myself...

I now have:

1. A black kitten that sleeps in the top left hand corner of my blog

2. A chatroom!!! (sorry, this is so exciting for me)

3. A Tiger

4. A ladybeetle ticker

5. Flowers growing in a few pots

6. Visitor counters

7. A freakin huge alarm clock

8. And fellow bloggers that love me!!!

Kat who????........LOL!

Come back soon Kat!

2006-03-15T19:42:00.000+10:30

I miss my blogger buddy Kat :o(

She is 'on the road' where there is no internet let alone phone reception...

So its pretty lonely here at the moment - where the hell are all the comments?!! Come on guys - Im all by myself!!!!

Stolen Body Part - Arms

2006-03-15T07:08:00.000+10:30

Yep - these are the arms I will have in only 4 months....well - I have to have visual goals also!!! and I think I have posted a million pics of Madonna....!!! I think this gal looks hot! - she is an american pop star(Beyonce wannabe)and is dating 'Snoop Doggy Dogs' son (whos name is 'Bow Bow'...!!)Anyway, those arms WILL BE MINE...BWWWAAA HAAAAA HAAAA (Rae TM)

Wee Winkle Tinkle - Creepy Invention 101

2006-03-14T22:11:00.000+10:30

ok - this is my last post before bedtime - but just wanted to say my water intake is going great guns again. After 2 weeks of the gruelling flu I have pulled through and have brought half of the arctic ocean with me. Bring on the frequent toilet visits (except in public toilets that is...did you know I have a germ phobia...need another post for than one....)

I SHIT YOU NOT this is a real invention...amazing what you find during late night surfing...:
'Welcome to the Throne Room of the Amazing New & Revolutionary... Wee Winkle Tinkle electronic toilet lid position signal!'
http://www.weewinkletinkle.com/

small freakin pic

2006-03-14T21:52:00.000+10:30

I have no idea why its coming out so small - sorry guys - told you SERIOUS SQUINTING was needed!! LOL

Small changes but changes for the better

2006-03-14T21:45:00.000+10:30

Here are a couple of the pics I took last week. I had to squint REALLY REALLY hard to see the changes and then I thought 'this is stupid - I cant show these to my trainer - nothing has changed!!' But I did - and he was really pleased...!!?? I know I feel different and I will measure myself in the morning to see any movement in cm - but if anything I know I feel a ZILLION times better! My nutrition is cool bananas and I recieved my new weights program today - lots of shoulders/back/bicep - woohooo!! - I have some serious work to do over the next few months....watch ya back Rae, Lia, Jadey!!! jokes - oh my god Im jokiiiiiiiiiiiing!!!!!! xxx

ticker tock 3.5months on the clock

2006-03-14T11:30:00.000+10:30

Yep - new ticker!

I am giving myself until July (3.5 months) to get the body I want - toned and hot! hot! hot!

July will be 1 year since I started blogging...1 YEAR!!! And when its Katfit.blogspot.com's 1st birthday I want to clebrate in style! So yeah - this goal has pepped me up and Im really excited about the next coming months.

I fel really good at the moment also. My nutrition is great - particularly beause I dont have to think about it 24/7 - I know what I need to do and I just do it. Like Rae has said - fuel the machine! Its so true - I want great results from my machine so I need to give it great fuel ...shit I could be really rude talking about this subject - my boyfriend just asked if he could oil it!!! ROFLMAO!

One thing I have been lazy on is cooking all my veggies for the day - need to start doing that as of now - nothing worse than being hungry and waiting for the veggies - sometimes I just eat them raw!! - does this give anyone else a bad tummy?!!! (raw zucchini tastes like crap!)

My new program comes this week - have sneezed the final bit of my flu away today - so am REEEEAAAADY!

Rae/Lia and team - so cool you have started a recipe blog!! yay!

Fat Buzzer

2006-03-11T19:05:00.000+10:30

WELLLLLL - yep that is my right bicep!!!

I had my pics taken (as you can see no more countdown ticker - and also because Kat accidentally deleted it) and I was pretty pleased with them!

I was just a little pissed off because they were taken at the peak of my flu and I hadnt exercised for over a week. But I had to get them so my progress could be assessed my next program could be written. I was told changes could be seen - and that I should be pleased also - so I shouldnt be too hard on myself! I just wish a little buzzer would go off everytime my body lost body fat or muscle grew - so I knew for sure - how cool would that be!!

RUT

2006-03-11T08:50:00.000+10:30

i haven't been feeling like myself the last few weeks, to be honest i feel CRAPPY! Isn't it funny how u know all the right things to do, but you can let yourself veer off?! I know that when i want to do something I do it, despite the circumstances, i've found moving from place to place at the moment has thrown me right out. If i was at one home for a week then another home for another week i could get a bit of a routine... but at the moment i dont know what's going on from one day to the next!!

I booked my appointment with my PT yesterday, am very excited but also very embarrassed. I've eaten so much crap over the last few weeks, i know i won't even have to say anything because he'll see straight away! Thank god Dan must of finally realised whats been going on, becasue now when i go to have something i shouldnt he says "i'll tell Andrew!" cheers hunni, it's just what i needed! He's making me think about it without having a go at me....those who know me know that tactic DOES NOT WORK! After he made his little 'threat' yesterday my reply was "you wont need too, he'll know just by looking at me" and it's the truth PT is so in tune its incredible!

So for the remainder of my holidays i am making a pact with myself to show my body a little more respect! Even if i can not stick to diet 100% i will focus on not eating takeaway and only eating small portions of good stuff and of course back in to the weights ASAP!!!

xxxchallenges bring em on'

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 ME

2006-03-09T11:20:00.000+10:30

i am a big fan of my own birthday... its a day i get to feel exceptionally loved!

Presents so far .... a giant block of hazelnut chocolate *my fav!!* could've done without it though :) and an ugly pair of fishing shoes which cost a fortune. So unfair... but oh so practical and a shite load better than the current wet suit booties i march the rocks in....men just dont understand why i even bother trying to look remotely trendy when im fishing ..... only a woman knows....

im going out for lunch with my family, I CANT wait, then am going to catch up with friends tonight and am spending the weekend fishing in a competition with one of my bestest friends.

Feel like a 5 yr old....oh boy oh boy oh boy!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FROM THE HOFF!

wooooooohoooooooo

2006-03-07T21:48:00.000+10:30

well, been doin a bit of runnin, alotta coughin, mixed with a fair bitta sneezin and A LOT of picking!

Day 5 not smoking...........have done reLLY really well. Bella suggested that i surround my self with smokers, i would have thought it would be totally impossible, but alas, here i am surrounded by smokers and am succeeding, its awesome! (2 non smokers vs every other person smoking) except i have been picking like CRAZY! anyway, am on top of the ciggies now, so back on track with the diet. We are finally getting our annexe for our little home sorted out YAY.... and our new CD player for our car(lia told ya i love gadgets) it's wicked, it'll play MP3s, have a direct port for our IPOD and does other stuff that im not too sure of, but will find out about. My old sound system is going in the hilux wooohoooo .......subwoofer kick ass speakers....im a music junky....kaddy hittin Exmouth with my new thumpin stereo with my dance music crankin! dan will probably ban me so i dont humiliate him lol. our little 'home' gets a new annexe with an lcd flat screen tv to boot. yay!

Had a couple of stressful day, we've been contemplating buying a block of land.... call me cynical but it all seemed to good to be true....i think it may have been a bad move...but my gut said no... and my heart was telling me i wanted to travel carefree like a flamin hippy.... so i took the hippy option out....may turn out to be the dumbest move ever, but after seeing SO many of our friends doing the 'investing' thing, the money isnt making them happy, just the opposite...and well we're happy as pigs in ''''well u know what..... so i decided i didnt want to risk my current euphoric happiness on a whim.....which wouldve probably made us $40000 richer in 18 months... eek am never saying it out loud again........

hippy power

FLU UPDATE

2006-03-07T14:40:00.000+10:30

ok - it is now 3pm...

...and the flu drugs combined with my positive flu thoughts have kicked in!!!

I was able to smell and taste my coffee!!

One small step for Bella - One giant step for my bodies health!!
WOOHOO

MY *SNIFF SNIFF* IS BACK!!

FLU POO

2006-03-07T12:00:00.000+10:30

Oh my oh my - I am so struck with the flu!!
Yep - what stated with an innocent cold has turn into something more nasty - and it has hit - and hit HARD !

Symptoms:
- dizziness
- no taste /smell
- nauseas
- headache
- tingly / sensitive skin
- heavy / dry eyes
- absolutely no appetite
- soooo thirsty

I feel like crap. I havent trained now for a week - I cant stand without feeling weak - AAAGHR! I feel like when I was a kid having a day off school - BORED OUT OF MY BRAINS!!! This time though I actually want to do my work - rather than lie around watching Oprah and crap midday movies! BOOO HOOO :-(

So - I have tried to reflect on the 'positives' of this body flu rampage...

1.I 100% know that my decisions in nutrition and training are the only way to go. Never will I sway from focusing on whats best for my body. There will never be a comprimise - and I am so fortunate to be surrounded by people who also want the best for me - having a network of friends who are so positive in their own health goals has the greatest effect on how I achieve mine.
2. Cravings only come from my head. Its an interesting thing having no taste or smell. I have chocolate/sugar cravings at about 4pm and after dinner - trying to eat chocolate with no taste is like eating glue. I did a test and had a few pieces of my favourite green & black chocolate and it was DISGUSTING. Sure - some every now and then will be fine - but not just because my body/brain screams you must eat sugar or you will implode. My brain has been taught a huge lesson from this flu - sugar cravings are mainly a ploy of self punishment - which is a way of myself holding me back from my goals. (this relates to my case and who I am - not everyone is like this) Sometimes I binge on sugar when I know I dont need it then beat myself up about it for the rest of the week. After years of this 'self-puishment' - I am now learning to 'love' myself - so that is why I now give the middle finger to these so-called 'cravings'.
3. The last few weeks I have been lazy with my water intake. This flu has definatley pushed me into dinking more - 4litres a day!! I am so freakin thirsty - strangely I am not going to the toilet much - which must mean I am extremely dehydrated. I must have my own pacific ocean in my bladder somewhere!!
4. Im going to bounce back from this flu STRONGER than ever!!

So they are the positives for now - hopefully the next positive is I will be feeling fine and lifting heavy at the gym!!!

BWAAHHAAHHAAA (Raes patented evil laugh) its gonna take more than the flu to keep this Bella down!!!!

DOIN WHATS GOOD FOR ME

2006-03-06T11:22:00.000+10:30

I have spent the last two days ripping the remainder of my cds on to my notebook to transfer on to my ipod (that was a mouthful) and i came across some of the coolest old songs! Since deciding that i was eliminating all the grey areas of my life and am 1000% confident in the decision i've made i found the following song appropriate. I cranked it up on my shuffle this morning and went for a power walk it was AWESOME! Im still sick and i dont know whether going was dumb but i feel a gazillion times better for it. Back on track with diet too! Read the following lyrics and see if it doesn't get you amped?!

Remember this one?

DO WHAT'S GOOD FOR ME1995

I'm movin' on up I'm doing what's good for me,

come on

I'm movin' on up um huh

just watch me walking out this door!

I'm taking my life in my hands

I'm gonna do what's good for me

Do what's good for me

I'm taking my life in my hands

I'm gonna do what's good for me

Do what's good for me

Listen up, push it downThis is the booming system sound

Floating around into your townOpen your eyes see what I've found

Yes I keep it real do what I feelStop telling me I know the dealFemale or male, inhale, exhale

No criminal no me never see jail

No more if's I say no more maybe's We'll be alright, I tell you baby

Let the leader lead, let the player play

Can you tell the world what we wanna say?

I'm gonna give it on up, give it in Give it out,

give it all awI gotta let it go, let it out,Let it loose, let it roll,

oh yeahI'm gonna movin' on up, movin' inMovin' out, movin' on

That's what I'm gonna doThat's what I got to do

I'm taking my life in my hands

I'm gonna do what's good for me

Do what's good for me

I'm taking my life in my hands

I'm gonna do what's good for me

Do what's good for me

Wanna give it on, give it in, give it upGive it out, give it all

That's what I'm gonna doThat's what I got to do

I'm gonna give it on up, give it inGive it out, give it all awI gotta let it go,

let it outLet it loose, let it roll,

oh yeahI'm gonna movin' on up, movin' inMovin' out, movin' on

That's what I'm gonna doThat's what I got to do

2006-03-06T09:41:00.000+10:30

Kat - this is who is after you for playing with the blog templates.....!!!

Muscle Gods!

2006-03-06T09:28:00.000+10:30

Hi all - yep - Kat has screwed with the templates and our blog has lost all its little quirks.....;-) So this post is going to include a whole heap of colourful pics!!!!

Amanda Doherty has an AWESOME body and she is also the sweetest person (dont you hate that!! lol - particularly now that I know a few people like this...!!!)

I found some interesting backstage pics from the 2004 NPFC IFBB Victorian Championships which I know some of our readers would find interesting...Rae - Lia!!!

Dohertys Gym is such a cool place - if only I lived closer so I could train with some of these muscle gods!! LOL!

WWW.DOHERTYSGYM.COM

seeya

2006-03-04T08:09:00.000+10:30

"Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts."

Winston Churchill

Im up bright and early, we're having a garage sale today, fingers crossed it goes well. We're getting there slowly, we're hoping to be finished with all the boring stuff next week, insurance etc blah blah blah

Anyway, so it has been really hard trying to have some normality, the thing is im mad at myself because i have proven to myself a hundred times before that i can still strive towards my goals despite the obstacles but for some reason have just let myself go over the last couple of weeks.

It's frustrating. I woke up yesterday with everything laid out for some cardio, ipod, runners, clothes and i had the flu. BUGGER! Today it's even worsed. I think i might even have a chest infection or something, so am laying low and taking it easy. By the time im over this i will be in full mode to kick butt and will be seeing my PT THANK GOD he will surely kick my butt!

After a lengthy conversation with Amelia yesterday she made me realise where my problem lays, im still holding on to the 'old' me, i have the 'new' me staring right at me willing me to take that extra step - holding me with two hands trying to pull me forward and the old me doing the same, but i cant seem to go either way. Anyway, i've decided it'stime to stand up and make this day count...and cut my ties to old me and strengthen my ties to new me. One step infront of the next with my eyes firmly set on my target, i know it's what i want so i have to stop questioning it and just do it. Today will be an awesome day, because after today i never have to come back and the thoguht alone is enough to make me cry.

Trheother thing that' enough to make me cry is that i cant go anywhere near my spunkrat nephew because of my germs.........bwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i love hugging him, he's sucha little social butterfly, loves to giggle and play and barely cries, if i have kids i want a clone lol.

winding up

2006-03-02T18:10:00.000+10:30

that fluey thing must be going around...im sniffling and have sore nostrils, think it's just hay fever!

Haven't been exercising STILL gonna buy another fit ball tomorrow so i can crank up again! Back at mums so can blog now, bought my HRM and ipod shuffle with me so i can go for a jog this morning. When i was shuffling through my ipod work out list today just looking at the names of the songs and thinking about being out jogging in the fresh air envoked crazy feelings of excitement go kat go.

It's been a HUGE learning experience for me the last couple of weeks.... even though i haven't been strictly on diet i've been learning a lot more about what i should and shouldn't do, as if i don't know already, but a little reinforcement never hurts.

Playing with my n ew little nephew heaps, he's so gorgeous and such a social butterfly, he'll just kick back , be cute and gurgle and only cries when everyones ignoring him lol... i wanna kidnap and keep him forever!

a little too much honey...

2006-03-02T13:59:00.000+10:30

WOW! Just took a cold 'n' flu tablet...

....my eyes are as wide as dinner plates and Im buzzing around like a bee!

What head cold?!!

Bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

these tablets should have more warnings on the back of the packet....

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

2006-03-02T12:54:00.000+10:30

Holy crap I have the beginnings a head cold!!!

SYMPTOMS:
- blocked ears
- scratchy feeling on right tonsil
- sneezing for no reason
- dry/tired eyes
- feeling cold despite it being 33C today

RECOVERY STRATEGY:
- cold 'n' flu tablets
- lots of water
- early into bed
- no exercise today
- stick to nutrition
- lots of sympathy from friends & family

I hold Rae responsible....

....and the fact that I just flew to New Zealand and back in 2 days for a funeral...

AAAGHR!!

As soon as I saw that pimply teenager sneeze and not cover his mouth (it was like a feature garden hose) in the row behind me on the aeroplane I knew there was going to be trouble!!!

mad cow

2006-02-28T08:42:00.000+10:30

well i've finally arrived at dans parents farm...we've spent two entire days going through all of our possessions sorting stuff out for a garage sale, basically we can barely keep anything as we have no where to store it, hopefully we make a bucket load of cash because we want to but an LCD flat screen for our van......

anyway, this farm is ferral, gross, yukky, off it...! we've both got shocking hayfever - on a positive note the nice country air and serenity is worth it. No broadband here im using a dial up connection which is running painfully slow at 24k Grrrr i know! i can barely check my e-mails as its taking 5 mins to navigate between pages, i've been at it for an hour almost and really don't have much to show for it lol...... bring on broadband!!

So, no more blogging for this little one until Thurs when i get to my mums... this computer will push me over the edge if i try and get back on it lol.

Anyway, all is good, haven't been following program at all for the last week but am getting back on track with diet today, feelin like a bloated cow with a seriously bad fluid retention problem, am going to see if i can get some vitamin tabs to HELP...coz its just not funny anymore!

How things have changed...

2006-02-27T08:47:00.000+10:30

Happy-ish to Happy Happy

2006-02-26T08:28:00.000+10:30

I am definatly a morning person. I wake at 6am and am in bed by 11:30pm - so whats that? - 6.5 hours sleep. Im good at 6.5hours - sometimes at about 3pm I have a 15min powernap - shit those things immediately make me feel a million times better. Today I slept till 7am and Im a bit puffy in the eyes - but I had to wake a couple of times in the night to call the cops about some really drunk idiots in the street yelling at eachother - hate that.

I had a good look at myself in the morror last night - and I am feeling more toned. My 'handles' arent as big - my thighs have trimmed down and my tummy is flatter. I still have a while to go until I am 'happy happy' - but at the moment I am 'happy-ish'. My biceps do piss me off though - I dont want 'flat pancake look' where the hell is the tone? I can see definition if I move my arm out a bit - but I want permanent tone - guess its a good indication I need to drop some more body fat.

For me, dropping body fat is all about not overdoing carbs. I have cut down my cardio and decreased my carbs - and am feeling so much better for it. I so do not miss the 5+ cardio sessions a week (HIIT/run whatever) and 4 weight sessions!! I know this works for some and thats awesome - but I have finally worked out that this isnt necessary for me. Sure - I may need to increase cardio at one stage - but at the moment I am losing bodyfat at a good rate by just focusing on my weight sessions and nutrition.

No dairy is also another positive move I made - particularly the cottage cheese - I mean, what the hell is in that stuff?!!!! - same with the protein powder - YUK!

Hey - I eat shit every so often still - but I took a good look at the frequency (everyday) and felt the cottage cheese and protein powder wasnt doing me any favours - particularly when I could eat protein from sources that my digestive system thanked me for (grilled chicken / lean meat etc) This way involves a little more stuffing around - cottage cheese/protein powder is very easy to prepare & consume - but the extra effort is woth it for me - I really have no choice - my crazy tummy just does not settle!

Anyway - I know I have spoken about all this before - I guess I just feel that much better from my current nutrition program - that I am pleased I was able to find alternatives that work for me - but I also know people that respond great to protein powder - which is great - but it just didnt work out for me!

What else? - my coffee grinder just shat itself - but luckily I was able to get my morning coffee out just in the nick of time - PHEW!!!

Girl weights SUCK!!

2006-02-25T16:25:00.000+10:30

So 'sticky hot' today - I feel like I am in Bangkok! Mind you I am sitting at a desk under a blaring air-con - its so powerful that Im struggling to blink - my eyes are all dry! lol - god only knows what this is doing to my skin!!

Was very excited when I went to the country gym - which is a first because I normally have to phone Kat to give me words of encouragement just to enter....yes, it is that bad....

BUT - the BRAND SPANKING NEW GYM 'grand opening' has been confirmed as March 1 - NEXT WEEK!! YAY!

Open 7 days - all day - rather than 6-10am mon-wed and 8-10am sat (are they the shittest hours or what?!!) - remembering though that is the 'best' part of they gym...did I mention there is a creche in the middle of the weights area.....?!

So am looking forward to really intensifying my workouts...my heart skips a beat from the thought of shiny new dumbells!!!!

Talking about dumbells I almost pissed myself laughing at the gym yesterday (again, I tend to piss myself laughing about a lot of things at this gym...did I mention I see people doing lat pulldowns with their 4 year old monkey - I mean kid - sitting on their lap....?!)

ANYWAY - I was speaking to a PT at the gym and I was telling him how I was looking forward to the new equipment - he said 'oh yeah - the girls are going to love it... We have special pink girl dumbells and they will be in a different section to the 'boys' dumbells...........WTF!!!!?

And after 'pissing myself laughing in my head' I immediately thought 'you f**ing idiot.' What a stupid thing to say - let alone actually buy for a gym. Maybe they were requested by the lady members... *shudder*.

Well, old gym or new gym - my IPOD will be blarring and the only person which will exist for that hour will be me - and me using the mens weights and me lifting heavy and me getting RIPPED!!!

What 'girl' weights....!!?

kidnapped

2006-02-25T10:05:00.000+10:30

someone gimme back kaddy!

i feel like i've been kidnapped.........

no workouts... no nutrition...but lots of SHOPPING!!!!!

yesterday was awesome, spent the entire day shopping.... somewhat depressing though as my overhanging hips proved that ive put a bit of fat on.... trying on jeans was a little depressing...but it certainly gave me the kick up the butt i needed!!!

cant wait to see my PT in a few weeks!! Im sure i will get the kick up the butt i deserve! im heading out to the farm today (dans parents) not looking forward to it...got to go through all of my stuff and i have to be ruthless about what im keeping *sigh* should be a whole lotta fun lol!

take care
xxx

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